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Showing posts from December, 2006

Waiting for Christmas

To keep my mind off of things, I did what I thought was the best way to lose and forget yourself even for a while. I went Christmas shopping with my sister. What with the feeling that it is just around the corner and time is ploughing its way to get there, I figured that I better get started on my shopping list to at least feel better that I have started already.

I think that there is no other season or event which troubles this heart. Christmas, with its unforgiving coming and its promised happiness, always surprises me when I am not in the least ready for it. This is not to say that I am a scrooge or anything like that; I remember years ago when Christmas was so easy and simple that it really did bring some pleasure and peace to a heart which yearns for both. Recently, it has been the opposite and the Christmas cheer fails to outshine the melancholy I feel--I even feel that its light and laughter only magnifies the sorrow and sadness that envelope me. The difficulty is with the happ…