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To shuffle: to mix cards in a pack so as to change the relative positions; to jumble together, mix, or interchange the positions of objects.

What would it mean to shuffle not only a pack of cards but already one's life?

Before every game, the dealer shuffles the pack of cards a number of times so that the players would get a fair hand; fair in the sense that the odds of getting this is the same as that of getting that card. Or again, fair in the sense that the dealer is not cheating, where to cheat here means to purposely favor one hand (his) over the other (mine), so that again one has a fair shot at winning. But the most important shuffle one gets is when after you lose a game, no matter how ugly your cards were, after the shuffle you get a fresh chance: to perhaps win, or to lose again--yet these are the same where what is important is to be given a chance to play again.

If life's a game, or even a gamble, wouldn't it then be very good to have the cards shuffled again, to receive new cards?--forget the last game, feel the excitement as you open your cards one by one; become challenged to play even a bad set; win, and even lose again with a new hand--because you never want to lose twice with the same hand.

But how to do this in actual life? How does one get a new hand? Who do we ask and who shall deal? How does one begin a new game? when sometimes it feels as if one's life is a solitary, long game where your cards were already dealt at the beginning and you can only play them in different ways, but they're the same damn cards, the same darn life.

How to shuffle? Is it really too much to ask to have a change of cards?



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