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A Love which Surprises

I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you.
Everything But the Girl

Initially and for the most part, since we seek in order to find then we find because we seek. Finding is the accomplishment of seeking: I will not find my watch if I did not look for it; and even if my watch was already merely there, I would be indifferent to its being-there because I was not looking for it, I did not need it or want it.

Now seeking then presupposes the absence of that which is sought. And this absence is usually the absence in the form of loss, like losing my watch which I now am trying to find. I will not look for something that I already see here and now; I usually look for something which I could see before but has now disappeared. We know this already.

But what about a seeking which is a pure discovery? The pursuit to discover is a kind of seeking which does not know what it is looking for but looks nevertheless. This kind of seeking, unlike the looking for something lost, is a lookin…

How True Love Became an Error

A Genealogy of Guilt

1. Love. With love comes supposed happiness and, on its tail, not very far back, contentment--that for and of which we both aspire and fear. We aspire being content because one cannot go hungry eternally; we fear it because when we are always full, our appetite grows and that which had filled us all too suddenly becomes--untasty. (Boredom, the beginning of looking beyond the immediate, beyond the present lover--a dangerous scanning.)

2. Desire. What precedes love and now what follows it--in this case the desire for an other. Since we only desire that which we do not have--and they are desirable precisely because they are distant--we begin to desire what is no longer allowed for us because of a commitment, a vow, a promise, a great hope. And what happens to a desire which cannot proceed outwardly?--it begins to turn inward, eats your insides, grows a conscience only for you to go against it, to debate and quarrel with it, to hate it--you begin to hate yourself. The m…

Pagiging Matanda: Isang Tanong

May bagong tanong ang aking estudyante at interesante dahil simple:

Kailan ba nagiging "matanda" ang isang tao? O ano ang basehan ng pagiging "matanda na"? O sa mismong mga salita ng mag-aaral:"Kailan ba talaga tayo nagiging "matanda na"? Ano ba yung "border" kung saan kapag nalagpasan na natin iyon ay matatawag na tayong matanda?"
Isang pagbabahagi:

Nakatutuwa ang tanong mo; wari ko isa iyang tanong na tinatanong natin kung nasa ganyang edad na tayo, halimbawa, kayo, na nasa kolehiyo. Dahil sa kolehiyo, malapit na kayong matapos ng inyong pag-aaral: ibig sabihin, para bang "hindi na bata" pero "hindi pa rin matanda." At kapag nasa gitna tayo ng dalawang bagay o panahon (bata at matanda), laging alanganin, laging mahirap.

Ano ba ang matanda? Kadalasan ang edad ang basehan natin para sabihin kung sino ang matanda. Ngunit iyon nga ang problema: Ilang taon para maging matanda? Ang magiging sagot ay laging arbitraryo.

Kaya b…